Modern Glamour

For a year or so, I piddled with all kinds of photography, it was only when I shot women that I truly loved my work. Mothers and daughters, sister, best friends … THOSE were the photos that stole my heart.

I tried so hard to force women to see the beauty I saw in my camera, and while I made money, I wasn’t making myself happy. The photos I shoot ARE beautiful, but because they are usually wearing little tiny outfits, my clients don’t share them with anyone but their loved ones; who already think they’re beautiful. I want my clients to dance out of my beautiful new studio and show their images to the first person they see! I want them to show those photos to my DOGS, because they are so blown away by how gorgeous they look they HAVE to show them to somebody!

On January 1st I pulled the trigger on a 12 Week course given by my photography idol, Sue Bryce. I have loved this woman for YEARS, even before I’d considered photography as anything more than a hobby. I was drawn in by the stories on her blog, then by her work and finally her voice.

I have learned more about the field of photography, and MYSELF, in the past eight weeks than I have in any class, workshop or tutorial I’ve taken in the past three years.

As a result I’ve once again restarted building my portfolio, to show the beautiful photos I can offer you. While I will NEVER stop shooting boudoir, I think ALL WOMEN should be able to show their photos to everyone, including their grandma. So I’ve graduated to Contemporary Glamour Photography.

What is Contemporary Glamour Photography?

My session with MsP was one that we’d talked about and made tentative plans for, but one day we said “NO MORE- we’re doing it!” And we did.

MsP was amazing – she is a hairdresser and a makeup artist, so I knew she’d come in hot for the session we’d decided on.

Random Evening Thoughts

Whenever I’m having a crisis of belief in myself (and trust me, that happens a lot), I go back and read through Sue Bryce​’s blog.

I discovered Sue about 3-4 years ago, right about the time everybody else did. She burst into the glam/boudoir photography world with a BANG, a goddamn black-eyed phenomenon from “Down Under” with the cutest accent, who became an over night success in the United States.

Sue Bryce - My Hero

Of course she’d been working her ass off for twenty years in Australia … so much for overnight successes.

But if I ever had a hero, and idol, she’s it and she’s what keeps me going when I want to quit. I got back and start going through some of her earliest blog entries, before she moved to the states and I find myself being inspired again.

While I love her style, I know I’ll never produce the kind of work she does – and truthfully I don’t want to. I don’t want to “Brycify” my work. That’s HER, it’s not ME. But her drive, her gumption, her force of will – that’s what keeps me going.

Things are tough right now, I’m not gonna lie; anyone who knows me knows I don’t sugar-coat a lot. I make a lot of jokes, but the truth is always there just under the surface.

I’m going into my fourth year of business and I’m finally seeing a change – in myself, in my work, in how potential clients see me. It’s encouraging, but of course, it’s not happening fast enough. I want it all right now. Because we never know what tomorrow is going to bring.

But I feel it there, I feel like this year is gonna be my year. It’s right there and I can touch it.

I haven’t done much since returning from New Orleans – I hadn’t realized how much I missed it and I was in a slump when I got back.

New Orleans Skyline

Then there was Christmas and it was wonderful.

I’ve been studying marketing and thinking of different things that I can offer as a boudoir/glamour photographer in the Green Bay area … something to make me stand out and get women interested in having their portrait taken. I’ve got some great ideas.

I was watching one of the entertainment shows and they had interviewed Debbie Reynolds back in the ’90’s, asking how she kept going. I’m paraphrasing here, but she said, “I just got up and kept going. I wanted to lay down and hide and sometimes I did for a day or two, but then I got up and kept going.”

Thanks, MsReynolds

Kinda rambling, I told you, lol.

New Year – OLD Me

Since I can’t show you my first session in the new studio (shhh … it’s a a surprise!) or the NEXT two either :(, I figured I’d show you the studio a different way.

But first, I want you to watch this video by Sue Bryce; as many of you know, Sue is my hero and while I didn’t GET the idea to shoot women from her, she has been my driving force for three years.

Yeah, so I am 55 years old, married over 30 years and two grown children. I am thirty pounds overweight, I’ve smoked since I was twelve and I use to party like a rock star. Sometimes BETTER than a rock star. I have Fibromyalgia, COPD and a plethora of other STUPID health issues that make it difficult for me to get my ass moving in the morning – who the hell ever heard of a rib randomly popping out of your spine?

And LOOK, Zippy, I’m STILL hot, goddammit (that’s an inside joke; those of you who get it, get it, those of you who don’t – sorry)

So that’s what the title of this blog refers to – it may be 2016, but I’m still me.

I did very little afterwork on these images – brightened my eyes, removed blemishes that won’t be there next week and maybe the lightest of making some bits smaller. I just made sure I posed in a way that I looked my best. If I can look this good I can make you look this good, with very little computer help.

Looking at these photos reminds me of who I am. Who I REALLY am and I love me.

Let me make you fall back in love with yourself.

Make a Wish

[dropcap]W[/dropcap]anting something is one thing. Taking action towards it is a different story. Keep gratitude in your mind always. Do one thing everyday to support your Want/Goals list and lastly applied faith. Know you are worth the life you dream of and let it happen. Get out of your own way. Strive for what you really want. When you write down what you want and set it in your mind your blocks will come up fast and they will be very obvious that’s what you embrace and fix as soon as you can.

No one outside the photography industry knows who Sue Bryce is, but I do and I guess that’s all that matters. Every words she writes speaks to me, every photo she takes sings to me. If Jen is the person who got me started, Sue is the person who keeps me going. When I feel like no one is in my corner, when no one understands how much my goals and dreams mean to me, I go back and start re-reading her blog, I watch her videos AGAIN and I get off my ass and I go.

So I keep pushing, keep doing all I know how to do, all I’ve learned

I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes ’til I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway