Every day is a new day and I have the opportunity to start over and/or get better at what I do. Even as early as it is, today has been frustrating and I’ve been tempted more than once to throw shit across the room. I don’t LIKE feeling like I don’t know what I’m doing … especially since – theoretically – I’m supposed to KNOW what I’m doing.
Take this blog post for instance; even though you can’t see what’s wrong, I KNOW it’s wrong and it’s making me crazy. But I’ve already wasted too much time trying to fix it and in the long run it doesn’t matter.
I uploaded a gallery for a client and screwed that up. Apparently scheduled THREE THINGS with THREE DIFFERENT people this morning, despite having every one of them on the calendar and visible to me.
I am frustrated out of my mind … I have ALWAYS been able to juggle and make everything work. My memory has ALWAYS been something I was very proud of. I have ALWAYS bragged about performing best under pressure.
I have to get used to the fact that I am NOT the person I used to be and adjust to that. It’s harder than I thought it would be and I thank you for your patience.