Random Evening Thoughts

Whenever I’m having a crisis of belief in myself (and trust me, that happens a lot), I go back and read through Sue Bryce​’s blog.

I discovered Sue about 3-4 years ago, right about the time everybody else did. She burst into the glam/boudoir photography world with a BANG, a goddamn black-eyed phenomenon from “Down Under” with the cutest accent, who became an over night success in the United States.

Of course she’d been working her ass off for twenty years in Australia … so much for overnight successes.

But if I ever had a hero, and idol, she’s it and she’s what keeps me going when I want to quit. I got back and start going through some of her earliest blog entries, before she moved to the states and I find myself being inspired again.

While I love her style, I know I’ll never produce the kind of work she does – and truthfully I don’t want to. I don’t want to “Brycify” my work. That’s HER, it’s not ME. But her drive, her gumption, her force of will – that’s what keeps me going.

Things are tough right now, I’m not gonna lie; anyone who knows me knows I don’t sugar-coat a lot. I make a lot of jokes, but the truth is always there just under the surface.

I’m going into my fourth year of business and I’m finally seeing a change – in myself, in my work, in how potential clients see me. It’s encouraging, but of course, it’s not happening fast enough. I want it all right now. Because we never know what tomorrow is going to bring.

But I feel it there, I feel like this year is gonna be my year. It’s right there and I can touch it.

I haven’t done much since returning from New Orleans – I hadn’t realized how much I missed it and I was in a slump when I got back.

Then there was Christmas and it was wonderful.

I’ve been studying marketing and thinking of different things that I can offer as a boudoir/glamour photographer in the Green Bay area … something to make me stand out and get women interested in having their portrait taken. I’ve got some great ideas.

I was watching one of the entertainment shows and they had interviewed Debbie Reynolds back in the ’90’s, asking how she kept going. I’m paraphrasing here, but she said, “I just got up and kept going. I wanted to lay down and hide and sometimes I did for a day or two, but then I got up and kept going.”

Thanks, MsReynolds

Kinda rambling, I told you, lol.