Turns out December has been a very … trying month. I was having some health issues and putting them off because I’m a pussy, but when I was finally dragged kicking and screaming to the doc’s office, some of my fears were put to rest. The news was not as good as I’d hoped for, but better than what I’d been expecting.
I kinda went off the deep end; in the past that would have meant a week long date with Jim Beam, but those days are past me and I’ve just been trying to work my head around what my life is gonna be like from now on. I’m still having a hard time with it and I expect I will continue to have a hard time, but – and ain’t that always how it goes – some good has come out of the crud.
First, I’ve decided to close down the studio – a little less stress in my life is not a bad thing. All future work will be done on location.
Second, I realized that I had a LOT of time on my hands this past few weeks, which led me to decide that I was going to do some REAL holiday decorating for the first time in years. Christmas is a tough time for me anyway and the past three years has sucked a lot more of the joy out of the holiday so I’ve done hardly any decorating at all. It’s been kind of a piss poor tribute to my mother’s favorite holiday and pretty rotten for my family.
I’ve also been doing some long overdue de-hoarding. Laws. I had a lot of junk. I have a lot less now. I wish losing weight was as easy as getting rid of junk.
Third, I’ve decided that I am NOT giving up my goal of spending the rest of my life making other women’s lives just a little but better.
I know I can’t make you love your body or see that you’re beautiful, but I CAN show you what the rest of the world sees and give you a lasting memento that will give your self-esteem a kick in the ass every time you look at it. What starts out as a gift for a loved one (whether it’s boudoir or glamour) will turn into lasting reminder that you really ARE kick-ass hot.
And that I WILL promise you.